Consternation

NOTE: I originally wrote this on April 19, 2017 — almost 2 months exactly from today, June 14, 2017. I saved it, because at that point I wasn’t sure if I wanted to share it or not. I’ve decided I will. It’s fictional, a chance to give freedom to the thoughts in my head at that point — but … Continue reading Consternation

A Day In The Life….

A Day In The Life…. *snap* My eyes flick open, my heart rate accelerating from it’s resting rate of a deep sleep to 85+ beats per minute. A crushing panic washes over me that I’ve overslept, or turned off my alarm and that I’m late for work. Frantically I reach for my phone to check … Continue reading A Day In The Life….

Walk with me

I wrote this over 10 years ago. I was living in Regina — working nights as a security officer. It was harsh time for me mentally and physically. Poor diet, typically sleeping 5 hours during the day, and working all night. Smoking almost 2 packs of cigarettes a day. Not good times….. but I still managed to … Continue reading Walk with me

The Attack

RUN!!! It’s after me, nipping at my heels. Barking, growling, harassing, biting. I fall, scramble to my feet, just in time to feel another blow, just behind my knees, and another one almost simultaneously I get pummelled in my abdomen. I fall. Dust choking my lungs, coating my lips and mouth. And all goes quiet. … Continue reading The Attack

The Hunt

I’ve battled depression and suicidal thoughts for years. I’m closer to 40 than I am to 30, and for over half of those years I’ve struggled with this. I’m finally seeking help — I’ve “sort of” saught help before, but this time I’m going all in. I’m tired of “sort of” coping, “sort of” handling life… I’m … Continue reading The Hunt